Thursday, September 22, 2011


I am having a hard time with honesty, maybe reality not sure just yet. I don't like where my head is leading me. My heart aches for the joy and excitement of....something I just don't know what that is right now.

How is it that my head and heart can't be together on anything? My head or "reality" keeps leading me down a path that my heart or "honesty" refuses to even try.

Example: I have researched and read about how "health care industry" is growing, booming, thriving because well the baby boomers getting older and all the diseases, duh right?! I tried nursing for 2 years I have diligently pursued a career in nursing. I started climbing the long and tedious ladder of nursing. I have seen and cleaned things that I NEVER thought I would ever have to clean but I made it. As far as jobs goes, I cant find one that makes my heart is really happy.

As far as the job count goes, I have had roughly 7 jobs in the last 2 years none of which obviously worked out. So now here I sit with another decision....what next? Really what do I do next? I have had so many jobs, last count was about 115. No joke. With all the jobs why can't I find one that I love, hell I would settle for half like at this point. So what's next? To be continued....

Sunday, February 6, 2011

New Beginning

I had started this blog in hopes of documenting all my many jobs. Well as you can tell I was not so successful. I had hoped that by reliving all my failures at business that I would find that one thing or one skill that would help me become successful at something. You see that is where I am these days, trying to find "it".

I have had lots of jobs in my life. I have been blessed enough to be given lots of opportunities to dabble in this and that. With all the dabbling, I have never found my "it". I like to think of myself as very creative but I am not an artist. At least not in the sense of sitting down with a pen/pencil and paper and creating something beautiful. I just need to find a way to figure out my niche in this world, so that what we are going to do together!

Over the next couple of weeks I want to devise a plan to find my "it". You will have to bear with me because well I have never done this before. I think I want to make a "bucket list" of some sense. So that is my plan, by tomorrow I will start to post my plan or list to find "it". I am off.....